hanami + urahara

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How’s it going? I’m in a pretty good mood today! Today was supposed to be my back-to-work day, so I got up and headed to school as usual only to be told to go home and come back Wednesday. Actually I thought things were taking a downturn when I got to the door and realised I had forgotten my key, but I managed to climb through a window (I wonder if any of my neighbours saw) and things were fine, lol.

Finally did some hanami on Saturday! I haven’t done a proper hanami in a couple of years, since last year I wasn’t feelin’ so hot and had to go home after about half an hour.

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Yoyogi-koen. Soooo many people. It’s crazy. When you’re walking through the trees you can just hear the decibels rising with every step. We had a lot of fun drinking in the trees, though.

One thing, however, I really wanted to do while I was in the area is take some pictures of my favorite shops. I have a plan to try drawing and watercoloring these later.

I’ll put them here.

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〒150-0001 Tokyo, Shibuya, Jingumae, 4 Chome−28-28 Lucessimo1F-B

Popped in here to buy a really cute necklace, actually.

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Nadia
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Romantic Standard
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Actually I never shop here, but the store front in so interesting to me.

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I’ve never been in here, either, but I have an ancient picture of me in high school standing next to their sign just because of the name.

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Moena Cafe
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Another place I’ve never been, but I love these stairs.

I almost never go to actual Takeshita-doori because of the crowds. The last time I tried going there was a Wednesday, so I thought it would be OK, but no. Takeshita-doori is perpetually unmanageable now. And all my favorite shops have packed up and left. :/

Urahara is the best, though. Maybe one of my happy places.

Also popped in for a delicious burrito bowl at Guzman y Gomez.

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Guzman y Gomez
〒150-0001 Tokyo, Shibuya, Jingumae, 1 Chome−11−6, ラフォーレ原宿 Laforet Harajuku

Guacamoleeeeeeeee!

Anyway, it was a good day. I’ll let you know how the paintings go.

Off to the night job now. Later. 🙂

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vortex of emo

Since August I’ve been in maybe the biggest, stupidest vortex of emo in my life.

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I only kind of feel like I’m starting to come out of it now, too. So, needless to say, finding the energy (or motivation) to do anything has been hard, neigh impossible. In a way lately I have kind of felt like a dolphin climbing a mountain.

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I’m starting to feel a little better, though. Which is awesome! But at the same time, I have recently been told on two different occasions that my Japanese has turned to shit.

One was a friend who recently left to roam Australia for a few years.

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The other was a friend from Halloween last year who I haven’t seen in a long time.

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Which is insane, since I use it all the time, especially have over the past few months. But I’m wondering if it doesn’t have something to do with the vortex of emo.

When I’m in there I feel super self-conscious of myself at all times. I feel like people I meet for the first time don’t like me and it’s my job to persuade them otherwise. But about halfway into it I decide I’m not worth liking and sort of give up.

I don’t know if that makes sense, but that’s what it feels like.

 

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last friday

 

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It’s soooo frustrating. But I think I kind of see a similar trend in my eikaiwa students, too. The ones who seem more confident can speak so much more clearly, take their time communicating more complex ideas, and get better and better. And the ones who quiver and shake in the corner just kind of stay at the same level forever burbling word salad.

So it may sound stupid, but I’ve started reading all those lulzy inspirational sites about how to improve your self confidence and state of mind.

You’re your own worst critic, and all that jazz.

Wish me luck? If you have any advice, I’d appreciate that, too. :/

By the way, Matsuda Seiko is an angel. I listen to this song almost every day, lol.

Matsuda Seiko – Akai Sweet Pea

 

dazzlin’ gets

Happy Humpday everybody! Tried out my new DUP liquid eyeliner and it is shamefully better than the Ettusais cat eye liquid liner I usually buy. D:

And the IF eating is going strong! Broke the fast today with more chicken on salad with quinoa.

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If you haven’t tried the new yuzu-style salad chicken at Family Mart… Don’t. It’s nast af. :/

I ended up eating the onigiri as an after school snack.

But anyway!

Sometimes I get lucky at this school and they let me go after lunch. I was headed home, walking through the EST, for a few hours before going back out to meet friends when a dress caught my eye from dazzlin’.

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please ignore my zombie face thnx

It’s adorable! Two pieces, and grey camisole-type under dress with the poof-sleeved grey sweat to fit over it. And just as I showed it to the staff girl, she came running back with the cutest and most comfortable rider’s jacket ever.

Long story short, I threw down. Financially, lol

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About 6900Y

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I have actually been wanting a rider’s jacket for a couple of years now, but every time I find one I like it’s either a) too expensive or b) too stiff. This one is faux leather of course, and perfectly flexible and stretchy. Fits great and not a bad price. No regrets. ♡

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The tote was a gift for spending over 8000Y, which I really should NOT have done, but I did it anyway and OH WELL NOTHING I CAN DO NOW HAHA

So yea. I’m off to meet some peeps and enjoy the midweek. Cheers!

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diet things

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So I kind of started a diet. Diet? Hm. I guess it’s more of a lifestyle change.

Over the summer, I put on about 4kg.

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You say.

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Ugh. I know.

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It’s easy to put on poundage when you spend every waking hour traipsing from bar to bar, shovelling unhealthy friend snacks into your face along the way.

In an unrelated side note doesn’t the word “traipse” sound like some one who walks around in diving fins?

And I know to some people 4kg may sound like nothing (we all have different bodies), and I’m not trying to sound whiny, but it really is causing me problems recently. All of my clothes fit me so uncomfortably these days that it’s driving me crazy. Like I think I need to buy new underwear to battle this mess.

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So I decided to hunt for a diet that would work for me. But I hate dieting and everything sucked. And I’m not someone who is good at sports or self-disciplined enough to reliably work out on a schedule.

So for a while I was trying taking FANCL’s Calorie Limit supplement before eating anything of sizeable proportion and taking DHC’s Force Coli to speed my metabolism.

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And actually it did alright! As long as I remembered to do my squats, sit ups, and didn’t eat over 1200 calories. But then I would go out on the weekend, and the weight would end up all right back where it was.

So I have decided to give Intermittent Fasting (IF) a go. I’ve been reading a lot of information about it, and got particularly motivated by this story. I’m also going for a Leangains approach, doing a 7 hour eating window and a 17 hour fasting window (which sounds a little wild, but I’ll adjust it if I feel it’s necessary).

If you’re not familiar with IF, what this means is you set a certain time frame in the day in which to get all of your calorie intake and the rest of the day you take no calories (you can still drink many teas, black coffee, zero-calorie sodas and water, though, so cheers). This way your body has more time to spend in fast state and burn up some excess fat that has been lingering on your body.

I’ve decided to try a window from 12:30pm til 19:30pm because it works for my schedule, and I’ve never been much of a breakfast person to begin with.

Anyway, goals.

So I decided to kick it off by doing one as-close-to-full-day-as-possible fast, starting mid-Monday and ending at noon today in time for lunch.

I didn’t anticipate it would be difficult (just my experience with some bad hangovers which left me appetite-less for days), and unsurprisingly it wasn’t. But I was surprised at HOW easy it was.

I even took lulzy progress notes like a REAL SCIENTAMIST. :B

 

I was so fucking happy to reach lunch, though.

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Pretty healthy: smoked chicken on green salad with hijiki and kimchi. It was delicious and perfectly satisfying, too.

So my first food window closed this evening, but before that I finally dug out ye olde Kai’s BRING IT!! Shrimp Curry (戒さんのかかってこい!!海老カレー) that I bought at the Gazette tour final in February for dinner.

Not the most artistic shot, but you get what you get, lol

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It tasted fishy. :/

At any rate, tomorrow’s my second day in and I’m trying to eat healthier, so wish me luck!

Have you ever tried IF? Any advice?

sick times

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Long time no post. 😦 Lately I’ve been getting sick a lot. Maybe my immune system is kind of weak (despite eating somewhat healthy and choking down a fistful of vitamins everyday).

I’ve been haunted by strep throat. I first got it back in February, out of nowhere. I took the meds and it went away. Then a couple of weeks ago on my way home from an Angelo live, it came back. I went back to the doctor, took the meds, and it went away. Then a week later …. IT CAME BACK.

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It’s been stupid. At the moment it’s gone, but I live everyday in fear that my throat will start feeling funny again.

I feel like doctors over here are so dismissive.

Fever? It’s probably nothing.

Chest pain? No worries.

Massive haemorrhaging from the carotid artery? Let the nurse grab you a bandage.

This is one of those rare moments living here where I can’t help but feeling like the most American person ever. I need meds dammit! I need to be poked and prodded and pricked and tested like a dubious slice of deli meat at a church picnic.

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It’s frustrating.

I think I finally recovered towards the end of last week, but this evening my throat started to feel strange again. So…. who knows.

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Anyone else have any bad doctor experiences here?

spring break begins

So spring break is beginning. I’m still technically “on call” from my job for a couple more days (ALT life), but lately the weather is getting warmer and I’m focusing more on creative things, so my mood is already ON VACATION. ♣

Today I woke up blissfully at 10 and a made a deliciously healthy breakfast.

 

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yogurt, granola with dried strawberries and raisins, and banana slices

Recently I’ve been pretty busy, overbooking my free time and my diet has suffered. I’m not strict about my diet usually, but there’s only so many days one can live on ramen and Family Mart chicken before fat and fatigue approaches.

I’ve definitely been overbooking my free time, though. Lately I find myself out with people all weekend, and then exhausted at work all week. The thing is, I love hanging out; it’s just my job does absolutely nothing for me. :/

So, I’ve started reading this book recently, Fuck It – Do What You Love by John C. Parkin.

 

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It looks like it’s exactly the kind of motivational help I need with this right now. I’m only 15% in on my kindle though, so I’ll let you know more what I think when I get further in. However it starts off with this great quote that really spoke to me.

 

“Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them.”

-Henry David Thoreau

It’s not an awful job, but I’m personally not happy with being an English teacher, so this year my goal is to start doing what I want. I don’t know entirely how to go about it yet, but I have a couple of small projects in the works (that I will mention here when I’m ready), so I will see where it takes me.

I do believe in the power of human will, though. When I was in high school and university, I surprised myself many times by driving for and getting what I wanted. Granted, the doors waiting for you to open when you are younger seem more numerous than in the years after university, I know if I had the power in me to do something I wanted then, I can do it now too. I just need to get back into doing hard work for it.

And with that I’m off to get another cup of tea and get back to that hard work.

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i got sick

Usually when I get sick I soldier through it pretty well. Fever and chills, I’m hardly fazed.

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When biology does get me down, it’s usually a hangover.

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But with colds and such, life pretty much continues as normal for me.

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Actually I would probably do fine with hangovers too, if I could ever stop throwing up.

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Two weeks ago on Sunday evening I went to be early with chills and feeling a little achy, and when I woke up in the morning, of course, I had a raging fever and “the sweats”. I pushed through and went on to work, slowly feeling better and better through out the week.

Then last week it happened AGAIN. Only this time my throat hurt and I couldn’t swallow. It was great. It actually knocked me out of commission for the first time in a long time.

I was having crazy Inception dreams.

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But aside from going to a small party on Saturday night, I’ve been taking it easy and trying to manoeuvre around my lack of energy. Even finished my antibiotics today. So here’s to getting better!

Take care everyone!

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