hanami + urahara

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How’s it going? I’m in a pretty good mood today! Today was supposed to be my back-to-work day, so I got up and headed to school as usual only to be told to go home and come back Wednesday. Actually I thought things were taking a downturn when I got to the door and realised I had forgotten my key, but I managed to climb through a window (I wonder if any of my neighbours saw) and things were fine, lol.

Finally did some hanami on Saturday! I haven’t done a proper hanami in a couple of years, since last year I wasn’t feelin’ so hot and had to go home after about half an hour.

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Yoyogi-koen. Soooo many people. It’s crazy. When you’re walking through the trees you can just hear the decibels rising with every step. We had a lot of fun drinking in the trees, though.

One thing, however, I really wanted to do while I was in the area is take some pictures of my favorite shops. I have a plan to try drawing and watercoloring these later.

I’ll put them here.

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〒150-0001 Tokyo, Shibuya, Jingumae, 4 Chome−28-28 Lucessimo1F-B

Popped in here to buy a really cute necklace, actually.

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Romantic Standard
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Actually I never shop here, but the store front in so interesting to me.

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I’ve never been in here, either, but I have an ancient picture of me in high school standing next to their sign just because of the name.

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Moena Cafe
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Another place I’ve never been, but I love these stairs.

I almost never go to actual Takeshita-doori because of the crowds. The last time I tried going there was a Wednesday, so I thought it would be OK, but no. Takeshita-doori is perpetually unmanageable now. And all my favorite shops have packed up and left. :/

Urahara is the best, though. Maybe one of my happy places.

Also popped in for a delicious burrito bowl at Guzman y Gomez.

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〒150-0001 Tokyo, Shibuya, Jingumae, 1 Chome−11−6, ラフォーレ原宿 Laforet Harajuku

Guacamoleeeeeeeee!

Anyway, it was a good day. I’ll let you know how the paintings go.

Off to the night job now. Later. 🙂

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hello, again, again.

Hey, long time no chat. This year. Ugh. On one hand I can’t believe it’s April, but on the other, I’m surprised it’s not yet June?

Since this year has begun, I’ve… started and stopped studying for the JLPT, started working on Design Festa prep for May, been to Kyoto for my best friend’s wedding, had a wild birthday party, been to Disney twice, Kusatsu hot spring, and actually… This week I should’ve been in Korea, but our travel company collapsed and took our tickets and reservations with it. So I had to make do with wandering Shin-Okubo on Wednesday and a horrible two day hangover. Woo!

I guess the point is, I’ve really been wanting to update here. I take all the pictures, and have all the ideas, but then I have so much to say I don’t even know where to begin. :/

Today I got out my old external hard drive though, and found sooooo many old pictures of yore, and when I found this, my heart felt so full.

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Forgive the shit quality. So this is how I used to decorate all my agendas and planners in high school/university, back when I was obsessed with all things visual kei and Harajuku.  And this one was so cute! I guess it probably got tossed out ages ago, but I’m so happy to have found this photo. I actually found it in a photo folder of a bunch of things from my closet in the old poupee girl website. Ah, memories.

the glories of tape

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I was kind of sad to notice this morning one of my favorite creative paper blogs has stopped updating. It’s a blog by a woman in Australia, Jenna Templeton, who does all sorts of creative projects with paper and washi tape. It was actually from her blog ages ago that I first found about about the wonders of washi tape. It doesn’t seem to be updated anymore, but for lots of cool ideas and creative inspiration, check out→ My Life As A Magazine.

And since I really love looking at people’s collections of things, I’m going to show you my washi tape collection! Hold on to your hats, people.

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The coolest ones of the bunch are probably these.

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Among them, some are kinda special. For example, these are from Paul & Joe. I actually got them from a monthly gift box service I was using last year, but they have cute little cats and fishes on them. ♡

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And these are actually goods from an Angelo live. There’s even one with the 切人♦︎一家 logo on it, lol. I think Angelo is probably the visual kei band with the most creative goods these days. XD

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These Sailor Moon tapes were given to me by a really sweet teacher at one of the schools I work at.

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And this Tokyo skyline tape is one of the coolest I’ve ever seen. I use it on my bullet notebook that I scribble in every day.

It’s not as much as some people have, but it’s already spilling out of the storage space I’ve allotted it. I’ve actually had to forbid myself from purchasing anymore, as I have a tendency to hoard project materials like this.

But they’re really cool to use in scrap books and such, like this.

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That’s my Tokyo 2013-2014 cut-paste story.

Do you have any cool washi tapes too?

vortex of emo

Since August I’ve been in maybe the biggest, stupidest vortex of emo in my life.

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I only kind of feel like I’m starting to come out of it now, too. So, needless to say, finding the energy (or motivation) to do anything has been hard, neigh impossible. In a way lately I have kind of felt like a dolphin climbing a mountain.

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I’m starting to feel a little better, though. Which is awesome! But at the same time, I have recently been told on two different occasions that my Japanese has turned to shit.

One was a friend who recently left to roam Australia for a few years.

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The other was a friend from Halloween last year who I haven’t seen in a long time.

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Which is insane, since I use it all the time, especially have over the past few months. But I’m wondering if it doesn’t have something to do with the vortex of emo.

When I’m in there I feel super self-conscious of myself at all times. I feel like people I meet for the first time don’t like me and it’s my job to persuade them otherwise. But about halfway into it I decide I’m not worth liking and sort of give up.

I don’t know if that makes sense, but that’s what it feels like.

 

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last friday

 

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It’s soooo frustrating. But I think I kind of see a similar trend in my eikaiwa students, too. The ones who seem more confident can speak so much more clearly, take their time communicating more complex ideas, and get better and better. And the ones who quiver and shake in the corner just kind of stay at the same level forever burbling word salad.

So it may sound stupid, but I’ve started reading all those lulzy inspirational sites about how to improve your self confidence and state of mind.

You’re your own worst critic, and all that jazz.

Wish me luck? If you have any advice, I’d appreciate that, too. :/

By the way, Matsuda Seiko is an angel. I listen to this song almost every day, lol.

Matsuda Seiko – Akai Sweet Pea

 

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Happy Humpday everybody! Tried out my new DUP liquid eyeliner and it is shamefully better than the Ettusais cat eye liquid liner I usually buy. D:

And the IF eating is going strong! Broke the fast today with more chicken on salad with quinoa.

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If you haven’t tried the new yuzu-style salad chicken at Family Mart… Don’t. It’s nast af. :/

I ended up eating the onigiri as an after school snack.

But anyway!

Sometimes I get lucky at this school and they let me go after lunch. I was headed home, walking through the EST, for a few hours before going back out to meet friends when a dress caught my eye from dazzlin’.

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please ignore my zombie face thnx

It’s adorable! Two pieces, and grey camisole-type under dress with the poof-sleeved grey sweat to fit over it. And just as I showed it to the staff girl, she came running back with the cutest and most comfortable rider’s jacket ever.

Long story short, I threw down. Financially, lol

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About 6900Y

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I have actually been wanting a rider’s jacket for a couple of years now, but every time I find one I like it’s either a) too expensive or b) too stiff. This one is faux leather of course, and perfectly flexible and stretchy. Fits great and not a bad price. No regrets. ♡

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The tote was a gift for spending over 8000Y, which I really should NOT have done, but I did it anyway and OH WELL NOTHING I CAN DO NOW HAHA

So yea. I’m off to meet some peeps and enjoy the midweek. Cheers!

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diet things

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So I kind of started a diet. Diet? Hm. I guess it’s more of a lifestyle change.

Over the summer, I put on about 4kg.

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You say.

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Ugh. I know.

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It’s easy to put on poundage when you spend every waking hour traipsing from bar to bar, shovelling unhealthy friend snacks into your face along the way.

In an unrelated side note doesn’t the word “traipse” sound like some one who walks around in diving fins?

And I know to some people 4kg may sound like nothing (we all have different bodies), and I’m not trying to sound whiny, but it really is causing me problems recently. All of my clothes fit me so uncomfortably these days that it’s driving me crazy. Like I think I need to buy new underwear to battle this mess.

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So I decided to hunt for a diet that would work for me. But I hate dieting and everything sucked. And I’m not someone who is good at sports or self-disciplined enough to reliably work out on a schedule.

So for a while I was trying taking FANCL’s Calorie Limit supplement before eating anything of sizeable proportion and taking DHC’s Force Coli to speed my metabolism.

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And actually it did alright! As long as I remembered to do my squats, sit ups, and didn’t eat over 1200 calories. But then I would go out on the weekend, and the weight would end up all right back where it was.

So I have decided to give Intermittent Fasting (IF) a go. I’ve been reading a lot of information about it, and got particularly motivated by this story. I’m also going for a Leangains approach, doing a 7 hour eating window and a 17 hour fasting window (which sounds a little wild, but I’ll adjust it if I feel it’s necessary).

If you’re not familiar with IF, what this means is you set a certain time frame in the day in which to get all of your calorie intake and the rest of the day you take no calories (you can still drink many teas, black coffee, zero-calorie sodas and water, though, so cheers). This way your body has more time to spend in fast state and burn up some excess fat that has been lingering on your body.

I’ve decided to try a window from 12:30pm til 19:30pm because it works for my schedule, and I’ve never been much of a breakfast person to begin with.

Anyway, goals.

So I decided to kick it off by doing one as-close-to-full-day-as-possible fast, starting mid-Monday and ending at noon today in time for lunch.

I didn’t anticipate it would be difficult (just my experience with some bad hangovers which left me appetite-less for days), and unsurprisingly it wasn’t. But I was surprised at HOW easy it was.

I even took lulzy progress notes like a REAL SCIENTAMIST. :B

 

I was so fucking happy to reach lunch, though.

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Pretty healthy: smoked chicken on green salad with hijiki and kimchi. It was delicious and perfectly satisfying, too.

So my first food window closed this evening, but before that I finally dug out ye olde Kai’s BRING IT!! Shrimp Curry (戒さんのかかってこい!!海老カレー) that I bought at the Gazette tour final in February for dinner.

Not the most artistic shot, but you get what you get, lol

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It tasted fishy. :/

At any rate, tomorrow’s my second day in and I’m trying to eat healthier, so wish me luck!

Have you ever tried IF? Any advice?

STANDING LIVE TOUR 16 GRAND FINALE DOGMA -ANOTHER FATE- @ 幕張メッセ

Yesterday was the GazettE’s GRAND FINALE free live at Makuhari Messe. It was the first time I’ve seen the GazettE since『LIVE TOUR 15-16 DOGMATIC FINAL「漆黒」』on February 28th (my b-day, lol). So over half a year for me.

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I took the day off and slept in and took my time getting ready since there was no way I could have gotten there in time to get goods and do cloak from my work assignment. But the night before they sent out the message about goods numbers from 9AM so I quickly said fuck it to goods and decided to get there just in time to go in. :/

Even though I really wanted that phone case… .___.

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My hella messy make up space ^. I went full fake eyelashes for the first time since Zepp Nagoya where one was sticking to my cheek like a crazy in the pit only halfway through. Quickly regretted it too since my hair kept getting stuck in them. :/

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Final look ^. I can’t remember what tour this shirt is from, and it was bothering me all day yesterday. (Was it DIPLOSOMIA??)

I used the lulzy Kishidan hip pouch with a chain from an old iPhone case for a bag so I could throw the chain inside and just wear the pouch like normal. No cloak/locker for me! 8D

I don’t dress up for standing lives. Haha

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Pre-live beer on the way to the station! (Cheers, Abe.)

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The tickets went through X-Z blocks and somehow I got lucky and ended up getting an X number, so I lingered in front of that bar until some friends I know came in and joined me. It was weird too, because it never got crowded for some reason. I’m so used to it being packed I hardly remembered how to furi and stuff with space. It was awesome though for the encore when we we broke it down and jumped into each other. SO HISASHIBURI.

Anyway, set list:

NIHIL
DOGMA
RAGE
DAWN
GABRIEL ON THE GALLOWS
VENOMOUS SPIDER’S WEB
CLEVER MONKEY
BIZARRE
DEUX
OMINOUS
THE SUICIDE CIRCUS
INCUBUS
LUCY
ATTITUDE
HEADACHE MAN
UGLY
BLEMISH
UNDYING

[EN]
INSIDE BEAST
赤いワンピース
Filth in the beauty
COCKROACH
TOMORROW NEVER DIES

[WEN]
関東土下座組合

Hilariously called Akai, too. Like “I wanna hear some old shit now, like Akai.” AND LO AND BEHOLD. Lol

Flipped my shit over Gabriel, too, just because I love that song. And was intrigued by how much the furi for COCKROACH has changed over the years. (All this clapping nowadays.)

The encore MC was much longer than usual, too. Ruki rambled a while about it being live number 69 and tour stuff until some girls up front called him on it and he just paused and sighed like, “…Hai.” ANYWAYS as I was saying…

They’re so old now, lol.

Lots of cute things in the MC, and speculating about what costume Reita was going to do for the Spooky Box live. It was adorable. ♡

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And alas we got the announcement, next year’s 15th Anniversary live! And the badass old school theme. So when we all headed out of the live the hall was all done up old style. Psyched, but it’s freaking March. Ages off.

I miss them. D:

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I haven’t written a live entry in ages, so I went back and revelled in the old ones from my blogspot and the signing I wrote on tumblr, here:

Fadeless Meet and Greet
GROAN OF DIPLOSOMIA 01 @ Yokosuka
GROAD OF DIPLOSOMIA 01 @ OLIX
GROAD OF DIPLOSOMIA 01 @ Biwako
GROAD OF DIPLOSOMIA 01 @ Kobe
and stuff.

I miss livejournal. :/