hanami + urahara

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How’s it going? I’m in a pretty good mood today! Today was supposed to be my back-to-work day, so I got up and headed to school as usual only to be told to go home and come back Wednesday. Actually I thought things were taking a downturn when I got to the door and realised I had forgotten my key, but I managed to climb through a window (I wonder if any of my neighbours saw) and things were fine, lol.

Finally did some hanami on Saturday! I haven’t done a proper hanami in a couple of years, since last year I wasn’t feelin’ so hot and had to go home after about half an hour.

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Yoyogi-koen. Soooo many people. It’s crazy. When you’re walking through the trees you can just hear the decibels rising with every step. We had a lot of fun drinking in the trees, though.

One thing, however, I really wanted to do while I was in the area is take some pictures of my favorite shops. I have a plan to try drawing and watercoloring these later.

I’ll put them here.

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〒150-0001 Tokyo, Shibuya, Jingumae, 4 Chome−28-28 Lucessimo1F-B

Popped in here to buy a really cute necklace, actually.

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Nadia
〒150-0001 Tokyo, Shibuya, 神宮前4丁目28-29

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Romantic Standard
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Actually I never shop here, but the store front in so interesting to me.

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I’ve never been in here, either, but I have an ancient picture of me in high school standing next to their sign just because of the name.

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Moena Cafe
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Another place I’ve never been, but I love these stairs.

I almost never go to actual Takeshita-doori because of the crowds. The last time I tried going there was a Wednesday, so I thought it would be OK, but no. Takeshita-doori is perpetually unmanageable now. And all my favorite shops have packed up and left. :/

Urahara is the best, though. Maybe one of my happy places.

Also popped in for a delicious burrito bowl at Guzman y Gomez.

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Guzman y Gomez
〒150-0001 Tokyo, Shibuya, Jingumae, 1 Chome−11−6, ラフォーレ原宿 Laforet Harajuku

Guacamoleeeeeeeee!

Anyway, it was a good day. I’ll let you know how the paintings go.

Off to the night job now. Later. 🙂

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hello, again, again.

Hey, long time no chat. This year. Ugh. On one hand I can’t believe it’s April, but on the other, I’m surprised it’s not yet June?

Since this year has begun, I’ve… started and stopped studying for the JLPT, started working on Design Festa prep for May, been to Kyoto for my best friend’s wedding, had a wild birthday party, been to Disney twice, Kusatsu hot spring, and actually… This week I should’ve been in Korea, but our travel company collapsed and took our tickets and reservations with it. So I had to make do with wandering Shin-Okubo on Wednesday and a horrible two day hangover. Woo!

I guess the point is, I’ve really been wanting to update here. I take all the pictures, and have all the ideas, but then I have so much to say I don’t even know where to begin. :/

Today I got out my old external hard drive though, and found sooooo many old pictures of yore, and when I found this, my heart felt so full.

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Forgive the shit quality. So this is how I used to decorate all my agendas and planners in high school/university, back when I was obsessed with all things visual kei and Harajuku.  And this one was so cute! I guess it probably got tossed out ages ago, but I’m so happy to have found this photo. I actually found it in a photo folder of a bunch of things from my closet in the old poupee girl website. Ah, memories.

vortex of emo

Since August I’ve been in maybe the biggest, stupidest vortex of emo in my life.

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I only kind of feel like I’m starting to come out of it now, too. So, needless to say, finding the energy (or motivation) to do anything has been hard, neigh impossible. In a way lately I have kind of felt like a dolphin climbing a mountain.

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I’m starting to feel a little better, though. Which is awesome! But at the same time, I have recently been told on two different occasions that my Japanese has turned to shit.

One was a friend who recently left to roam Australia for a few years.

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The other was a friend from Halloween last year who I haven’t seen in a long time.

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Which is insane, since I use it all the time, especially have over the past few months. But I’m wondering if it doesn’t have something to do with the vortex of emo.

When I’m in there I feel super self-conscious of myself at all times. I feel like people I meet for the first time don’t like me and it’s my job to persuade them otherwise. But about halfway into it I decide I’m not worth liking and sort of give up.

I don’t know if that makes sense, but that’s what it feels like.

 

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last friday

 

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It’s soooo frustrating. But I think I kind of see a similar trend in my eikaiwa students, too. The ones who seem more confident can speak so much more clearly, take their time communicating more complex ideas, and get better and better. And the ones who quiver and shake in the corner just kind of stay at the same level forever burbling word salad.

So it may sound stupid, but I’ve started reading all those lulzy inspirational sites about how to improve your self confidence and state of mind.

You’re your own worst critic, and all that jazz.

Wish me luck? If you have any advice, I’d appreciate that, too. :/

By the way, Matsuda Seiko is an angel. I listen to this song almost every day, lol.

Matsuda Seiko – Akai Sweet Pea

 

sick times

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Long time no post. 😦 Lately I’ve been getting sick a lot. Maybe my immune system is kind of weak (despite eating somewhat healthy and choking down a fistful of vitamins everyday).

I’ve been haunted by strep throat. I first got it back in February, out of nowhere. I took the meds and it went away. Then a couple of weeks ago on my way home from an Angelo live, it came back. I went back to the doctor, took the meds, and it went away. Then a week later …. IT CAME BACK.

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It’s been stupid. At the moment it’s gone, but I live everyday in fear that my throat will start feeling funny again.

I feel like doctors over here are so dismissive.

Fever? It’s probably nothing.

Chest pain? No worries.

Massive haemorrhaging from the carotid artery? Let the nurse grab you a bandage.

This is one of those rare moments living here where I can’t help but feeling like the most American person ever. I need meds dammit! I need to be poked and prodded and pricked and tested like a dubious slice of deli meat at a church picnic.

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It’s frustrating.

I think I finally recovered towards the end of last week, but this evening my throat started to feel strange again. So…. who knows.

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Anyone else have any bad doctor experiences here?